It wasn’t until the pandemic has stopped the whole world, that I had the opportunity to slow down, reflect and make a decision to leave my previous line of work in managing businesses and explore what my mind was leaning towards for quite some time.
What made me study and qualify in this form of psychotherapy?
Although perhaps if someone looked at my life from the outside could have said that I had it easy, I was born into a so-called ‘good home’ and had what appeared to be a rather easy upbringing. Sometimes even if all the external factors seem to be in the right place, what happens inside us can be very different. I grew up with a label of being ‘too much’ of almost everything you can think of, from too much energy, too bold, to too quiet, too melancholic, too depressed and everything in-between. When my adulthood started, all of this ‘too much’ has translated into ‘not good enough’, which made me feeling not good enough for anything, and often that I just don’t belong anywhere. It took me long years of hard work, years of hitting many ‘cul de sacs’, years of bad decisions and their consequences. It took me years to understand that I’m the one who’s now in charge of how I feel, and I even learned to control it all, at least when things were going well, but as soon as the slightest shadow of a doubt appeared, I would automatically default to the very same old story.
Only when in a space of 10 months I had 2 near death experiences, my own perception of life has completely changed. It didn’t happen overnight, it wasn’t a ‘eureka’ experience, although I have experienced much more appreciation for being alive. It felt like there’s reason I’m still here but I yet need to find it. Although my thinking about life and death has completely shifted and I truly started believing that it just wasn’t my time yet, the period of time between the 2 ‘bangs’ was muddled with a lot of confusion, pain and fear. Something eventually let the sun shine on me too, filling my mind with peace and calmness and my life with a lot of excitement and appreciation for simple things that always have been there. I then wondered, is this (almost dying) the only way to realise how wonderful life is…? Wouldn’t there be another option to shift the perception of our own reality…?
When I found out about BWRT, I knew this is what I needed to do. I not only felt the internal urge to help others to change the perception of their own world, but also felt like I found the way to do so. And this is how my journey has started 💜.
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